Stay at home

On March 6th I returned to Washington DC from a three week trip to the UK and Iceland. I waltzed back into the US, blissfully happy after spending time researching a writing project in Scotland and spending my birthday enjoying stark beauty of Iceland, all the while secure in the knowledge that my next gig would start on Monday and I’d be set with work through the summer. What didn’t register was the fact that I was returning to a world turned upside down by a virus. Customs simply nodded and waved me through and definitely didn’t ask where I’d been or check my temperature. At the time I was exhausted and ready to get home and crawl into my own bed, so the quick Customs check was completely fine by me. It wasn’t until later that I paused to think about it and wonder at how little attention was paid to the health of the people coming back into the country from Iceland on March 6th, knowing that within a few days travel from Europe would be restricted. Luckily, I didn’t have the dreaded COVID19… but still, it is a bit unsettling to consider.

On Monday, March 9th I started my new gig… spent four days on the job before Washington DC’s pandemic response kicked in and we were all ordered to stay at home. BOOM! Home I went. And home I still am. And while I do have an editing system at home, the company I was working with decided against allowing me to work from home - their coporate policy apparently doesn’t allow freelancers to bring media home with them.

Life in the time of COVID19 is a bit bizarre. Wearing a face mask takes getting used to, and the doomsday preppers and toilet paper hoarders are annoying AF. But  I’m an introvert by nature, so social distancing isn’t as difficult on me as it is on others. Mostly I find myself disappointed in my fellow citizens. We seem, as a society to have lost all sense of making sacrifices for the common good. When I think about the stories my parents and grandparents used to tell of living through WW2 and the Great Depression, I marvel at how soft and selfish we’ve become. How incapable of giving things up - even for just a few months - so that others might survive. I can admit, I miss the gym, and I miss the daily interaction with my coworkers, and I haven’t seen my family since February, but honestly, things could be much worse.

At this point, DC has entered Phase 2 of its re-opening, but I’m still a bit wary…

Lay offs

And so it goes... joining the ranks of the unemployed, and hopeful that it's a short-lived dose of "funemployment" for me. So far, the biggest challenge I'm facing seems to be finding work that allows me to continue to create meaningful content.  If AlJazeera America, and particularly America Tonight, delivered anything, it was content that mattered.  Meanwhile the only work I'm hearing about is truly horrible reality tv featuring middle aged women acting like teen age girls, cooking shows, and true crime programs. (insert heavy sigh here) It's difficult not to feel a tiny bit of bitterness - so many people have made a point to say "I'm so sad AlJazeera America is closing, they raised the television journalism bar and reported on so many things you'd NEVER see on the other news networks." And all I can think is, "SO WHY WEREN'T MORE PEOPLE WATCHING?"  

busy, busy, busy...

Working for a current affairs show is relentless. In at 8:30, out at 6:30 on an early day, to the gym, and home - oh look, it's time for bed and we start again tomorrow. And God forbid there's breaking news... I may never get home. The good part is that I work with some amazing people. My coworkers are smart and actively engaged in the outside world. They care about what's going on all over the world. Most of them know how to keep a sense of humor when things get stressful. That said, sometimes it's like my life is slipping away; and I wonder what I have to show for it. On the other hand, if I weren't working on this show, I'd be cutting a horrible crime show, or a hideous reality tv program. All in all, I do feel lucky. 

I learned last week that an amazing and wonderful person who I knew in college, died. The world lost one of the good ones.